Monthly Archives: April 2008

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I just noticed it’s been a week since my last unpost, the video below.

I’ve been spectacularly unengaged lately.

I completely missed the Spring Arts Festival, maybe my favorite event every year, and full-on blew off an obligation to volunteer for Soartstar.

In politics, it’s Indiana and North Carolina and gas tax holiday and Rev. Wright and denunciation and ho f’n hum.

I got asked out on a date and I went and it was … confusing, and now it’s over and I’m back to petting a cat.

I go to my AA meetings and keep my mouth shut and listen and the meetings are good and good for me and the one last night was as usual and I came home and fixed myself a sandwich and some pear halves with cottage cheese and went to bed early.

This week, I’ve been working hard and billing hours and I’ve got lots to do.

Next month, I’ll be taking Mom to Mississippi to visit her sister and the best part is that I’ll get to visit my son Jack in New Orleans.

I’m guessing my new meds are finally kicking in and that it’s to be expected that the highs and lows are never too high or too low. My goal was to get back to work and stop obsessing about trivia and I’ve reached that goal, whatever the price.

I’ve been reading my fellow bloggers with interest. My sister has an exciting new job and I couldn’t be more pleased and Nina is writing about her (non) love life and going out to dinner and it’s a very engaging thread to keep up with and MCARP is on a star tour of photo ops and that makes me laugh because it’s the punctuation to long exhalations about non-attachment. Those three seem engaged in a way that I’m just not right now.

Please don’t get me wrong. I’m not in any way unhappy. Like MCARP, I’m perfectly content to have no drama in my life. It is a good thing for me to habituate going to bed early, getting up early and going to work and billing hours and coming home and fixing dinner. It’s a good thing to have a fairly set schedule of AA meetings and Wednesday dinner with my Paseo companions. Not only are these things good and good for me and a goal I’ve been striving to accomplish, but it’s also an end to some other very self destructive elements that had been in my life for far too long.

It’s just not very interesting to write about.

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Diebold Blitzkreig

WANTED: Punk band enthusiasts for new band by the name Diebold Blitzkreig. Our first song to rehearse will be a cover of the Ramones’ “Blitzkreig Bop”. C’mon. It’ll be fun. You know you want to do it. Yes, I’m talking about you geezers who read this.

Unofficial returns (updated 12:30 a.m. Wed.)

(At 12:30 a.m. Wednesday morning, and 98.9% of the votes counted, it’s Sen. Clinton 54.3%, Sen. Obama 45.7% and about a +10 delegate gain for Hillary. Not bad guessing on my part, he boasted.)

Since guesses about tonight’s primary in Pennsylvania are like belly buttons (everyone has one) and one is just about as good as another, my guess is that the primary will be about 54-46 in Clinton’s favor, with a net delegate lead of 10-12.

That said, I’d like to make a note or two about the fall campaign.

First, something’s happened with the Obama campaign that’s never, to my knowledge, happened ever before. He’s built an on the ground volunteer organization in every one of the 46 states where’s he’s campaigned so far. He didn’t use the Dem Party apparatus of teachers and union members, he built his own 3 million volunteers and contributors. About half of that 3 million donated an average of $100 each to his campaign. He’s declined the “old school” black organizations of street money in South Carolina and now in Philly in favor of his own brand of enthusiastic volunteers. The historical precedents are Goldwater and William Jennings Bryan and they aren’t really that close; Andrew Jackson, who created the Democratic Party in the first place, is the closest of historical analogies.

The unprecedented door to door canvassers and phone bankers are joined by another unprecedented aspect of the campaign.

Almost every voter in America has now seen a variety of repeated television commercials from his campaign. No campaign ever has spent so much money on television and radio for a year before the general election campaign. The vast majority of these ads have been the “meet the candidate” and “hope and change” variety. No Democrat has ever gone through a primary with so many “views” by the television viewing public and few have come anywhere close by the time November arrived and in the next six months, assuming his nomination, he will overwhelm even Republican ad campaigns of the past.

Finally, this is the first “YouTube” campaign. The internet has played a large part in this campaign in an unprecedented way for all three of the major remaining candidates. Obama’s campaign has seemed a quantum leap ahead of the others in this regard. His videos and blogging sites are 90-10 over the other two combined. Think about the Will.I.Am video, just for a single example.

The Clinton and Bush elections were the rise and flowering of the 24-hour news cycle cable elections, the Reagan and Bush I elections were the culmination of the 40 years of the television elections preceding them. It is difficult to assess at this point whether this campaign is like the break from the Civil War to FDR domination of the Republican Party and the Reagan break of Democratic Party domination that followed, but it “feels” like something brand new. I’m not suprised that the TV networks have not figured out how to cover or talk about this campaign, they are too busy with their short cycles of news.

No matter your partisan leanings, this is the first 21st Century election campaign and we are witnessing something remarkable, unique and historic. The political hack and historian in me is amazed. This is all aside from the fact that Obama is a mixed race candidate running against a woman, another remarkable, unique and historic event in America’s democracy/republic.

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It's official

The returns have now been made official.

My lying, cheating, stealing, low-down, no-good, so-called “friends” slashed and burned my retirement savings for another $6.00 last night at what was laughingly called “poker”, but what in reality was a “demean and punish” Blogblah night.

Oh, and happy birthday Hitler and Suzanne, your Oklahoma surrogate.

“Bitter”?

Hell yes I’m bitter.

I’m clinging to my belief in God in hopes that all of them will be punished in the hereafter.

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They better hope I don’t also cling to my guns.

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They better hope I don’t go all McCain on them and really get angry.

mutter mutter mutter … .

Hey, you kids! Get off my damn lawn!

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I think I just pooped in my pants.

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Sens. Boren, Nunn Endorse Obama

According to Marc Ambinder at The Atlantic Magazine online:

Two major stars of the Democratic foreign policy establishment — former Sens. Sam Nunn and David Boren, have just endorsed Barack Obama and have agreed to serve on his national security team. Nunn served as the Democratic Party’s coverman in foreign policy debates for two decades. He voted against the 1991 Gulf War and thereby gave many other Democrats permission to take that political risk. He’s a social conservative in many respects, too. More recently, Nunn has associated himself with the cause of nuclear nonproliferation. He spent 8 years as chairman of the Armed Services committee in the Senate. Boren left the Senate in 1994 and is a former chairman of what used to be called the Senate Select Committee on intelligence. He also spent 16 years as governor of Oklahoma. In the statements they provided to the Obama campaign, both Nunn and Boren sound Obama-esque notes. Here’s Nunn: “Demonizing the opposition, oversimplifying the issues, and dumbing down the political debate prevent our country from coming together to make tough decisions and tackle our biggest challenges.” Here’s Boren: ““Our most urgent task is to end the divisions in our country, to stop the political bickering, and to unite our talents and efforts. Americans of all persuasions are pleading with our political leaders to bring us together. I believe Senator Obama is sincerely committed to that effort. He has made a non-partisan approach to all issues a top priority.” Last summer, Boren held private talks with associates of Mayor Mike Bloomberg about a possible independent presidential bid.

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Pentagon report: Iraq "major debacle"

By Jonathan S. Landay and John Walcott,
McClatchy Newspapers

WASHINGTON — The war in Iraq has become “a major debacle” and the outcome “is in doubt” despite improvements in security from the buildup in U.S. forces, according to a highly critical study published Thursday by the Pentagon’s premier military educational institute.

The report released by the National Defense University raises fresh doubts about President Bush ‘s projections of a U.S. victory in Iraq just a week after Bush announced that he was suspending U.S. troop reductions.

The report carries considerable weight because it was written by Joseph Collins , a former senior Pentagon official, and was based in part on interviews with other former senior defense and intelligence officials who played roles in prewar preparations.

It was published by the university’s National Institute for Strategic Studies , a Defense Department research center.

“Measured in blood and treasure, the war in Iraq has achieved the status of a major war and a major debacle,” says the report’s opening line.

At the time the report was written last fall, more than 4,000 U.S. and foreign troops, more than 7,500 Iraqi security forces and as many as 82,000 Iraqi civilians had been killed and tens of thousands of others wounded, while the cost of the war since March 2003 was estimated at $450 billion .

“No one as yet has calculated the costs of long-term veterans’ benefits or the total impact on service personnel and materiel,” wrote Collins, who was involved in planning post-invasion humanitarian operations.

The report said that the United States has suffered serious political costs, with its standing in the world seriously diminished. Moreover, operations in Iraq have diverted “manpower, materiel and the attention of decision-makers” from “all other efforts in the war on terror” and severely strained the U.S. armed forces.

“Compounding all of these problems, our efforts there (in Iraq ) were designed to enhance U.S. national security, but they have become, at least temporarily, an incubator for terrorism and have emboldened Iran to expand its influence throughout the Middle East ,” the report continued.

The addition of 30,000 U.S. troops to Iraq last year to halt the country’s descent into all-out civil war has improved security, but not enough to ensure that the country emerges as a stable democracy at peace with its neighbors, the report said.

“Despite impressive progress in security, the outcome of the war is in doubt,” said the report. “Strong majorities of both Iraqis and Americans favor some sort of U.S. withdrawal. Intelligence analysts, however, remind us that the only thing worse than an Iraq with an American army may be an Iraq after a rapid withdrawal of that army.”

“For many analysts (including this one), Iraq remains a ‘must win,’ but for many others, despite obvious progress under General David Petraeus and the surge, it now looks like a ‘can’t win.'”

The report lays much of the blame for what went wrong in Iraq after the initial U.S. victory at the feet of then-Defense Secretary Donald H. Rumsfeld . It says that in November 2001 , before the war in Afghanistan was over, President Bush asked Rumsfeld “to begin planning in secret for potential military operations against Iraq .”

Rumsfeld, who was closely allied with Vice President Dick Cheney , bypassed the Joint Chiefs of Staff, the report says, and became “the direct supervisor of the combatant commanders.”

” . . . the aggressive, hands-on Rumsfeld,” it continues, “cajoled and pushed his way toward a small force and a lightning fast operation.” Later, he shut down the military’s computerized deployment system, “questioning, delaying or deleting units on the numerous deployment orders that came across his desk.”

In part because “long, costly, manpower-intensive post-combat operations were anathema to Rumsfeld,” the report says, the U.S. was unprepared to fight what Collins calls “War B,” the battle against insurgents and sectarian violence that began in mid-2003, shortly after “War A,” the fight against Saddam Hussein’s forces, ended.

Compounding the problem was a series of faulty assumptions made by Bush’s top aides, among them an expectation fed by Iraqi exiles that Iraqis would be grateful to America for liberating them from Saddam’s dictatorship. The administration also expected that ” Iraq without Saddam could manage and fund its own reconstruction.”

The report also singles out the Bush administration’s national security apparatus and implicitly President Bush and both of his national security advisers, Condoleezza Rice and Stephen Hadley , saying that “senior national security officials exhibited in many instances an imperious attitude, exerting power and pressure where diplomacy and bargaining might have had a better effect.”

Collins ends his report by quoting Winston Churchill , who said: “Let us learn our lessons. Never, never believe any war will be smooth and easy, or that anyone who embarks on the strange voyage can measure the tides and hurricanes he will encounter. . . . Always remember, however sure you are that you can easily win, that there would not be a war if the other man did not think that he also had a chance.”

To read the report:

www.ndu.edu/inss/Occasional_Papers/OP5.pdf

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A smile is just a smile?

I went to work today and actually got stuff done.

I was pretty proud of myself and very grateful to get out of the house.

I’ve agreed to sit on the board of directors of a new non-profit foundation and I attended the organization meeting in the early evening.

Afterwards, I went to Flip’s for a salad because I’ve not had anything green to eat in several days.

That’s when I noticed my smile has changed.

Several people came into Flip’s while I sat at a table next to the West doors and many of them were attractive (and less attractive, I’ll admit) women.

I smiled as they entered.

But, it was a lips-together smile.

I used to have an automatic show of teeth smile.

I got pounded by one or another less self confident woman on more than one occasion because I’d smiled at someone while with them.

I was “flirting”, I found out.

Apparently, there are acceptable smiles and there are flirting smiles.

Who knew?

I’ve also noticed other changes.

Not all that long ago, if I saw a woman wearing nice jewelry or a nice scarf or great shoes, I’d say so.

Not any more.

Flirting.

Used to be, if I was where there was music and I had a mind to, I’d ask someone to dance.

Little did I know that asking someone to dance was just short of “Wanna kickit?” and at least a prelude to an engagement.

It’s flirtatious.

Nowadays, I just listen to the music and keep to myself.

The oddest part of all that is that I’m not dating anyone. Haven’t dated anyone in more than a year.

Now, I get it that if I walk up to you with a big smile, remark on your earrings and ask you to dance that the combination is likely a flirt, although I’ll also say that for me it’s often just a matter of I’m happy, think your jewelry is nice and would like to dance AND THAT’S IT. I still see, finally, that the combination can be interpreted as having an ulterior motive.

So, what I’d like to know from my women readers — daughters and sisters should feel included — do any of you pay attention to such details of your behavior? Are there things you don’t do around guys that seem perfectly natural, but that you avoid so as to finesse how your smile (or whatever) might be interpreted? Do you always just smile naturally or do you sometimes censor how you smile, what you say and what you do? Is it for you learned or just naturally you know what to do and what not to do in the circumstance?

And, also clothes. For a lot of reasons, I tend to be in suit and tie when almost everyone else is more casual. Does that make how I act seem more flirtatious to you? No question that a woman’s apparel can affect how men react to them. Buttoned up to the throat and skirt to the knees is different from tube top and micro-mini jeans skirt from a man’s perspective. Do women also have “rules” about how men dress? They say some women look at our shoes first. Do they? Do you?

I get some attention from some people for supposedly being a “womanizer”. That’s not at all how it feels from my insides; to me, it seems like I’m shy and clumsy when it comes to the ladies. It seems to me that having that reputation is an impediment and not an advantage. However, I don’t really know. I don’t even really know if that is my reputation. I do know that sometimes the reaction by women to me seems like voter reaction to politicians — that I’m a guy who will say or do anything to get elected but after the first Tuesday in November, I can’t be found. What, if anything, can or should I do to avoid this reaction and reputation?

I’m really asking here, ladies. As much as I’ve enjoyed being a batchelor and slumming around my house passing gas and scratching myself, it’s spring and the day will come when I will want to go out and date and look for Flibbertigibbit’s “The One”. This time, I’d like to start off on the right foot and give myself the best possible chances of meeting someone.

Not my choice for the best film of all time, but certainly my own all time favorite.

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Sick and tired of sick and tired

Thanks to the well-wishers and particularly Mom and Oz and Deb who made home visits.

One thing I’ll say about being confined to quarters for four days: it’s boring as hell.

Even food tastes bad when everything tastes of snot. (sorry about that image, but it’s true.)

I’ll tell one amusing story about being sick and too unwell to go out on Friday and Saturday night.

My eyes have been very liquid, runny as if in tears, and it’s made it hard for me to read the internet and I’ve been reduced to watching some TV, including last night’s SNL.

So, I went to the local CVS drug store to get some cough medicine. Trouble is, I don’t drink alcohol even in medicine. Yep, I don’t even use mouthwash with alcohol and get a brand that’s alcohol free. So, Nyquil is out since it’s got more alcohol than liquor store beer or most wines.

But, when I got to the drug store, my eyes were so blurry I couldn’t read the labels to find the ones with no alcohol (almost all of them use alcohol).

So, I had to go home, take out my contacts, take an antihistamine, and go back to the drug store.

Kinda amusing that I’d be so particular, but I also realized that all I had to do was ask the pharmacist when I was there the first time.

You don’t think so good when your head is full of snot.

The sinus headache was one of the worst parts of this. I didn’t want to move out of bed at first because my sinuses were banging gongs inside.

The other bad part was deep fatigue and body ache combined with sore ribs from coughing spasms.

Sleeping helped and by Saturday, I felt much much better. But, I knew better than to get out because I was just too weak to socialize. Today, I’m just bored. I just finished reading 560 comments on Politico’s website about the Obama “bitter” remarks. I can’t say I read anything worth reading, I was just reading one idiot blasting another with a soupcon of Republican shadenfreude thrown in now and again.

I think I read and care more about politics than anyone else I know. I have reached the limits, though. I’m just plain tired of the Dem party primary and wish it would be over and done. Right this minute, I don’t even care who wins or how, I just wish the crap would end. I’d be happy to stick with it if we were talking about the war in Iraq or the economy or even health care, but we aren’t. I don’t care about Hillary’s misspeaking about Bosnia and I don’t care about Obama’s “Level II Kinsleyan Gaffe”. I don’t care about “street money” in Philly or Evan Bayh in downstate Indiana or Obama’s 25 point lead in North Carolina or Hillary’s 13 point lead in Puerto Rico.

I’m every bit as sick and tired of talking heads on television as I am of blogger bombast.

And, even though I’m better and plan on being at work tomorrow, I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.

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Friday (updated at 11 p.m.)

Looks like I’m not getting out of the house. I was home all day Thursday as well.

I’ll miss my Friday night dinner with friends, but I can’t really tell if I have allergies from all the lawn mowing on my block or if I’ve got some respiratory illness that might be contagious.

Either way, I feel like crap. Yesterday, I slept 8 hours, got up for four hours, slept four hours, got up for 4 hours and went back to sleep for 8 hours.

The only thing I want to do is cough and blow my nose. Walking from the bed to the bathroom leaves me exhausted and getting to the kitchen is a matter of desperation not convenience.

I missed the call, but it seems that West Coast sister has another grandchild, meaning that the family has expanded by two within the past few weeks. I also missed — for the second week in a row — my usual Thursday at Flip’s with the fabulous K.O.

I’ve tried to get excited over political news, but to tell you the honest truth, I just don’t give a darn right now.

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this cheered me up. sketch comedy contest on YouTube. Had to use the word “indubitably”.

A post-ironic world? (updated Wed.)

Supposedly, this is a post-ironic world. Irony was killed by a song full of coincidences, I’m told.

I’m here to tell you this is not true. Irony remains with us.

Read this story about a woman arrested for a drunk driving one-car accident on her way to Bible study.

The last paragraph is important because it makes the irony all the more poignant.

You couldn’t get away with such awesomeness in a fiction story, but real life is full of surprises.

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P.S. I almost forgot. This isn’t irony, but it’s in that territory. I was over on a blog called TalkLeft, which is essentially a Hillary website these days. Anyway, they are talking about how unfair it is that Sen. Clinton’s story about a woman and her unborn baby both died because they were without health insurance and couldn’t pony up $100 for a hospital that spurned her. Not exactly the truth exactly the way Sen. Clinton told the story, but not so far off, either, it’s just more complicated than that. Anyways, all these Hillary supporters are talking about how unfairly the NY Sen. is treated in comparison to Sen. Obama and they come up with the theory that it’s the fault of the media, just like what the media did to Al Gore and Kerry and how useless the media was in the runup to the war. I’m pretty confused at this point. It’s the Left Wing media that’s hard on Hillary but it was the Right Wing media that was hard on Gore and Kerry and President and First Lady Clinton. But it’s the Left Wing Media because it’s the bloggers at Talking Points Memo (Josh Marshall) and Daily Kos (Markos Moulatis) and … Matthews and Olbermann and Pat Buchanan (?) … and … watch this YouTube video called Mad as Hell, it’s gone viral and it’s all about how unfair they are being to Hillary, who is only fighting for all of us true and real Democrats who will vote for McCain before Obama.

I’m glad I’m not a blind partisan or anything.

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Is it McCaining with you?